I resigned today.
I have been struggling with my job for months. Serious issues I've talked to HR about. Daily defeat. Coupled with the mind numbing news I got this week, the place has become Toxic to me.
Did I fight so hard out of one abusive relationship for another? Husband, Boss, Whatever. No matter that it has a Christian name. No matter that there are good people there, doing great work for the Kingdom. The small corner of that universe that I occupied was awful. In the end it doesn't matter who it is saying you're not good enough. I am.
So I'm released and it feels wonderful. I was blessed to form some amazing friendships, which will carry through. I have a unique opportunity to job search wile my children are with X. And I feel really good. I am choosing, deliberately choosing better, for myself. It's nice to know the more I do it, the easier it gets.