Unapologeticly Me

I'm back! Willow Tree has been opened back up because I've decided to be unapologeticly me.

To my faithful circle I send out love and hugs; know that you have been integral in my long road home. I love you guys.

Nothing to hide, no one to fear. Dang, that feels good.

This Is Mine,
Carolynn

Would You Like A Sticker?

Thank you Jesus and thank you for praying! I Got The Job, I start next Friday! I'm thrilled, it's a terrific mission and working in an office that speaks the name of our Savior is exactly what I need.

I found childcare close by for my youngest son and daughter (oldest is in school). I can pop in on a break or a whim to check on them, we can have lunch together every day if I would like to! That makes the transition so much easier on me. They're fine. We went to check out the center and they were like, "see ya mom!" I'm a puddle on the inside... in the back of my mind I'm still a little bitter about not having the next 2 years at home with my children like I was "supposed" to. But I remind myself the alternative, the price of that, is one I could not bear to pay another day.

So this will be good for all of us. I'll get to put makeup on and talk to grown ups, they'll get a head start on social development. Plus, let's face it, we all appreciate a macaroni art project a little more when it wasn't our dining room that was destroyed in the process. And assistance in potty training a two year old? I rest my case.

Since I only received $19.00 of child support in January, I don't have high hopes for February; even with my victorious new job, I'll need another. Would you like a sticker? I'm practicing while I wait for my interviews with Wal-Mart and Target for a nights and weekends job. If God hadn't given me humor I'd have waved the white flag a long time ago.

When we first came to Wisconsin I was hoping for a quick fix of my destroyed life. Six weeks later I understand a solid fix, one that's built a lesson at a time, is what will last us. I'm changing habits, thought patterns, our path, one day at a time. I do believe I'm getting ready to see the mountaintop.

The Lord your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has watched over your journey through this vast desert... the Lord your God has been with you, and you have not lacked anything. (Deuteronomy 2:7)

High Five,
Carolynn

Mayberry

There are days I'm sure the world could fix itself if everyone adopted a Mayberry state of mind.

What is the world coming to when delivery drivers are being robbed at gunpoint??

But then I am reminded that even Mayberry had crime... they had a Sheriff, a Deputy and a frequently used jail, after all. I'm supposed to hear back about a job tomorrow. It's an administrative job with a national Christian organization dedicated to spreading the Gospel in college campuses. Things are really starting to look up! I still have a long way to walk, but I feel like I'm finally out of the tunnel.

I'm going to open my blog back up soon too. Bit by bit, step by step, I'll make my own Mayberry... and I'm The Sheriff.

Carolynn

His Hands in the Hudson

Have you seen this picture?? I got it in an email called, "What Really Happened On The Hudson."

I cheered for the crew when they came out on the field at the Superbowl. Angels do walk among us.

I Believe,
Carolynn

The Winner...

I was rooting for the underdog, but let's face it... I watched 4 hours of football for the commercials. This one was by far the crowd favorite at our house. Well, that and the Chex Mix.


Which one was your favorite? Did your team win?

Confetti!,
Carolynn

Slackin' Off

70%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?

I found out about this from my best girl Francesca at Three Bay B Chicks and just had to know... how addicted am I? Apparently, I'm slacking off. Because really? 70%? It's like I'm an amateur or something.

How addicted are You?

Must. Blog.,
Carolynn

Small Stuff

What you got if you ain't got love
the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up, go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for forever
is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem so small

It's so easy to get lost inside a problem
that seems so big at the time, it's like a river that's so wide it swallows you whole.
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by, moving so fast
you better make it count
'cause you can't get it back

This song has been speaking to my soul all day. Did you hear what I heard?? X is just a grain of sand. God will take me to the mountain, I don't have to climb it by myself! My Dad has always said be mad for 5 minutes and then let it go. I needed to have a good fit, but I learned something once it was all out. I have a right to be angry, but I will not give X the right to ruin my new life in consuming anger.

I have everything everyone, that matters. Space may be tight, but I've missed my family like crazy for years. I may not have all the details planned, but I have a job interview with a Christian company tomorrow that I'm really excited about; it's a start. I have been covered in prayer, my camp has been circled by angels, bloggers, friends, that have made all the difference.

Time to stop sweatin the small stuff.

Making It Count,
Carolynn