I am being taught not to worry. It's different than being told not to worry; it is humbling. Over and over again this week as I have cried out to the Lord, He has reminded me He does not need my help... and then exceeds my expectations.
Christmas night I was on my knees, face on the floor, praying, crying, begging for help. I only had 2 people lined up to help me load the U-Haul and a house full of stuff that wasn't even going to fit into it. A dear friend came out to help me sort through the wedding totes and baby clothes, both of which I'd dreaded doing alone. Bright and early I called U-Haul; not only did they have a bigger truck, it cost less money than my smaller one. A friend from choir came to help me get the truck I had no idea how to drive... unbeknown to me, he drives trucks for a living.
And then, people just kept showing up! Never in all my life have I moved so smoothly. There were people packing, people loading, people cooking, people cleaning. Don't worry, Carolynn, I got this.
My family was delayed a day from coming up to get me because there was too much fog. There was too much fog because of a freak heat wave! It was 40 something degrees while the truck was being loaded. May not sound that warm, but it was a seventy degree difference from the week before. You can not tell me He was not there. He was showing off! Showing off His love and provision for me.
We got the truck down to Wisconsin, unloaded it and I turned around and went back to Minnesota for my children. I was so fearful X wouldn't give them to me without a fight. But he needed them picked up early, so he could move the rest of his things out of our old house. So what if I had a 6 hours drive in the snow? We came HOME today.
Home, to family. To Chex Mix and Cake. To grilled cheese sandwiches and soup. Home to My Father's House, in so many ways. I cannot describe how exhausted I am, but I haven't been this happy in a long, long time.
I've got a to do list a mile long for 2009, but I'm excited about every bit of it. The only thing to wrap up from '08 is signing the decree. We are so close to true freedom. The Lord has brought us out of Egypt and into the promised land. Now the key is not to wander around for the next 40 years.
Who the Son sets free is free indeed. (John 8:36) When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. (Isaiah 43:2)
Nothing Is Impossible For Him,