Thursday, December 18, 2008

There Will Be Cake

The kids had their first visitation with X tonight. I simply could not sit home and chew my fingernails off worrying. So I saw Four Christmases. It was funny and I desperately needed to laugh. It was a practice run; he gets them for the whole weekend too.

Deep Breath.

The child support thing is still a mess. Just this morning he agreed to everything that was best for our children and fair, then he talked to his lawyer and called the whole deal off. His attorney gives lawyers a bad name. Who in their right mind would advise a client Not to pay child support? Cold hearted idiot.

Times like these I wonder what's taking God so long to answer me. Then I remember Isaiah 55:8-9, For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. He may answer at the 11th hour, but He will never be late.

Tonight I'm clinging to the hope of Daniel 10:12-13; an angel came to him and said, "...since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them. But the prince of the Persian kingdom (the enemy) resisted me twenty-one days. Then Michael, one of the chief princes (angels), came to help me, because I was detained there..." Maybe the angels are still fighting their way through to answer my prayers.

I'm going to pack all weekend; it needs to be done and it will keep me busy. Hour by hour, day by day, we're stepping closer to the end. No! To our new beginning. There will be cake my friends, oh yes, there will be cake.

Start The Countdown (13 days)
Carolynn

13 comments:

Debbie said...

You deserve the cake, girl. And I'm glad you took yourself to a movie. Not many more days. You can do it!!!

rychelle said...

Your outlook and faith is inspiring.
Enjoy the cake. (I hope it's chocolate) ;)

Growin' with it! said...

it truly amazes me how someone can be in such a rough spot and just encourage the socks off those around them...like you!! those scriptures were just what i needed tonight. so thank you.

i will keep praying for you carolynn and anticipate incredible stories of joy in the journey ahead of you!!

3 Bay B Chicks said...

I saw Four Christmases recently too. Loved it and loved Vince Vaughn. Seriously one of the funniest men alive.

Lots of deep breathing this weekend, my friend. Crank your holiday music, be productive, and blog, if needed. Your support network is standing by.

XOXO

PS: Are you back in your house for the remaining 13 days?

Mistress Meeyee said...

I am sorry you have been going through so much.You will have an iron will,and be much stronger because of all this!

SuperAunt said...

Hey kiddo...you told God your plans didn't you, and what does he do when you tell him your plans? God gives us "challenges" to build character and faith. I sometimes question how much character I really need, but apparently He feels I need more. Remember we each have two wolves in us, and we choose which one we feed. I believe that for self preservation we find it necessary to feed the bad wolf, but a majority of the time, the good wolf holds fast and true. Stay Strong, be patient, and remember God has a plan and He will let you know what it is in His time. Love you.

Heather of the EO said...

Everyone has said what I'd like to say. So um... DITTO. You're doing much better than you could ever realize. This is just plain stinkin' totally and completely hard!

eternallyhuckdoll said...

Your new beginning. Yes! Soon you will experience the first day of the rest of your life and it will be a beautiful thing. I had mine a few weeks ago and it's an amazing feeling. I'm so glad to hear you got out and laughed...it's really so important.

(((HUGS))

jubilee said...

Still prayin for ya! And, honey, eat the whole dang cake if ya want!

Katalyst said...

I saw this quote today and it had your name written all over it. Love you!

"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. Happiness is a journey, not a destination." ~ Souza

Jodi said...

bless your heart - we'll keep praying!

Jenny said...

Hey there sweet Carolynn... I'm glad to see you're still hanging in there.. or should I say, Hanging on to Jesus? For dear life? :) I'm glad to check in and know how to pray. God brings you to my mind surprisingly often, so now I know how to pray.

jubilee said...

BTW, left you an award on my blog. Come and see . . .