Thursday, February 19, 2009

All The Single Mama's

To all the single mama's in the blogosphere I salute you. Wow-za. The only time I've had to blog I've used to sleep. I'm talking the stop-moving-at-10:00-fall-into-bed-and-pass-out-from-
exhaustion-until-dawn-rolls-around kind of sleep. All of a sudden I looked up and 7 days have passed!

I started my new job and L-O-V-E it. Cannot say enough good things about it! It is so clear how intentionally part of His plan for my healing it is, that I am where I am. No accidents in the Kingdom! He has made some divine connections and I am starting to find a bit more of me. The other day I looked in the mirror and thought, "oh there you are! I know you."

Remember when I said my youngest 2 were fine? What did I know. They loved the first 2 days. And have hated the last 3. Apparently the novelty of day care has worn off and they're fully aware this routine is not temporary. May I just add they are not big fans. My daughter has cried the entire day for the last 2. (that's a total of 18 hours y'all.) My son sobbed all the way there (30 minute commute) because the teacher, "makes me take a naaaaaap!" Poor guy. I feel awful for them, but that one gave me a laugh. Laugh or cry, laugh or cry.

Their teachers are great. I trust them when they tell me this too shall pass. Because every child goes through it. Just doesn't make me feel a whole lot better when it's my babies we're talking about. Of course it could be worse; I could be crying about going to work too. Then we'd be a sorry lot for sure.

I still ache for a home of my own, but I'm understanding the value of the village. You know, takes a village to raise a child? I'm praising God for this village every day. Every time dinner is made, a basket of laundry is folded, or a lost set of mittens is found I am grateful. Honestly I'm a little panicked about doing it all, all on my own. So I'm slowing down. I'm watching the single mother's around me, and pulling out the pieces I think will work best for us. Someday I too will be able to help a new single mother by making her laugh with the best line I've heard yet, "been there, done that, got the t-shirt. And you can too."

One Day At A Time,


Erin K. said...

Oh - the part about your kids makes me sad. :( I know they will get through it and someday you'll drop them off and they won't even want to give you a hug goodbye (happens to me all the time now), but I know how hard it can be.

On the other hand, I am so, so, so happy to hear that your job is going well! Praise the Lord!

And, remember, if you're having a rough day, Kaitlyn would probably advise you to cast your cares on Chuck E. Cheese. ;-)

Blessed said...

I'm glad you are enjoying your job! Leaving the kids would be hard...

Hang in there, you'll get your t-shirt!

seriously? said...

OK I know this will be cheesy buy here me out...I read your blog and just can't help but here the Jefferson's opening song. "Movin on up." You ARE movin on up and you are finally getting your piece of the pie. Keep on moving forward...

Annette said...

Glad you love your job. I have been wondering how you and the kids were doing so this was a great update.
Good to see you are finding yourself.

Dawn said...

You GO, girl!!!

I am so happy to know that you're loving your job. Life is always easier if you like what you're doing.

Your kids will settle into the new routine. Remember, it takes 30 days to set new habits (routines), so give them time. I'm betting it won't even take that long.


SuperAunt said...

There is a new song by Darius Rutger (Whootie and the Blowfish guy) that tells about how time FLYS. One of the topics is daycare and his daughter. I know it is on I-tunes, but I didn't bring my IPOD so I don't know the name of it, but it made me reflect on the past, and he was right.

Love Ya, and boxes are coming your way! Please let me know when you get them?

SuperAunt said...

Gotta say it, especially after reading your blog...... 'you poor, poor woman', that T'shirt is gonna look good on you, and you are earning it even faster as you are quick on the pick up. The secret is in the knowledge, and staying strong, at least until you can get in the shower. Showers bring new meaning to being baptized in the water. Stay strong Miss Carolynn, I have all kinds of faith in you. Tell the boys..... cookies are a comin'. Love you, Satan's Life Coach.

Rach@In His Hands said...

Oh girl, I'm so thrilled that you love your job - He is so good!

Your sweet kiddos....they'll adjust soon, but I'm sure it's heart breaking. Hold on to those little laughs in between the crying...pretty soon there will be smiles far more frequently then tears!

Praying for you, friend, and rooting for you!

Growin' with it! said...

great *chin up* attitude. way to go carolynn. i sure grinned at that mirror part. 'bout time for you. and it will come soon for your kids too, you're right!


Sara@i.Sass said...

It IS hard to see those tears when you have to leave your kiddos in someone else's care. (I was on the OTHER side of this one.)
Know that the little isn't crying NON-stop for two days. She has moments all day long where she is sad. I had a little one Gracie, who was very sad coming into school, we had to keep telling Mama, you said goodbye, you need to hold your head up and walk out. She'll be OKAY. It's you that needs to be tough. Then we'd cuddle for a bit and Gracie would realize she was ok. Through out the day we would see brief tears, but all she needed was that reassuring hug. TRUST me when I say your kiddos are doing fine, of course they want YOU. But they are ok. I had me faves, and the were always the sensitive ones just like me.
Now why can't somebody make ME nap!

Boy Mom said...

This will probably sound weird to you but every now and then I envy the working Mom, I feel like I do better when I have a scheduled and I'm not the most internally scheduled person so the idea of working and day care is appealing to me. I guess the grass is always greener, huh?

That being said, I feeeel your pain. it's hard to feel that it's not by your choice.

Love your upbeat attitude.

jubilee said...

When my husband was deployed, my chickadees and I moved in with my parents. I learned the value of a village too. Even though my situation was temporary, I get it. And it's tough. And totally worth it.

Debbie said...

I am so thrilled for you about your job! And I think your kids will adjust very soon. You know how resilient they are. Hang in there.

imbeingheldhostage said...

If I lived closer to you, I'd help village you. For now, know that you all are in my prayers. You are a wonderful mom, you've done a great thing for your kids, it just takes adjustment. I'm so glad the job has been a joy, that helps!

forever folding laundry said...

So glad you're loving the job! The kids will come around, but I know it's hard on everyone at first. I was wondering what happened to you, so glad to see all is moving right along!