Monday, June 15, 2009

The Meeting

The Habitat For Humanity meeting tonight was great. Emotionally exhausting, but great. It's a fine line to walk, wanting something so badly, needing it, and being aware that the decision rests in the hands of someone else. I'm almost scared to hope... Almost.

So I'm, what do you call it? Visualizing. I can see the red door. I know that I'll hang flowers like these from my front porch. And of course, I can see us all swinging hammers. :)These are pictures I took at the Farmer's Market that is held downtown every Saturday. The flowers are so beautiful! My Pastor in Minnesota says he sees God everyday because he is looking for God. That one line is changing me. I am finding God meets me at my level of expectation. I want the blessings the Bible talks about, that chase me down and overtake me. So I'm looking for Him. Expecting to see Him move.

If we are selected, our home will begin construction in 2010, be ready by 2011. As unbelievable as the blessing would be... it is a long way off, we are far from home. I heard a song on the radio about being homesick for Heaven. I understood it for the first time tonight.

God, in His infinite humor wisdom, has a way of putting people in our paths. As I was talking with the speaker from HFH, after I cried the ugly cry, I found out he is the CEO. There's no accidents in the Kingdom. Why did God want him to hear my need?

I came home to 2 of my 3 children sick, a migraine and a 20 page application. Did I cry? YES. Am I holier than thou? Not even almost. I hurt, I struggle, I fail. But I'm going to get up tomorrow and seek Him, as I want Him to seek me. Thank you for your prayers, there are days they put my feet on the floor.

Carolynn

9 comments:

forever folding laundry said...

What a great opportunity! Of course if it's meant to be, it will be. And as you say, there are no accidents. Will be praying for you!

~Keri

Sara@i.Sass said...

You better believe that I'm praying for you!!!
And I'll be knocking on that red door too! :)

Octamom said...

Keeping my hands folded in prayer for you (I'd cross my fingers, but I'm thinking this has nothing to do with 'luck')--hoping so much for you that the Lord will grant you this home--
Blessings~

Growin' with it! said...

sometimes that good ugly cry is so worth just getting out, don'tcha think? hope you feel some relief from all the stress and that God does continue to "show up" BIG in each day you look for Him.
hugs!

Heather of the EO said...

I feel like I'm holding my breath with you!!!

It really is a long wait, but I really do hope the very best for you. I know this is so humbling, but please believe that you deserve this gift. You're a treasure.

Sara @ Domestically Challenged said...

Naturally we will pray for you!! I can't wait to hear!

Stesha said...

Sending positive thoughts your way! 2010 here we come!

Hugs and Mocha,
Stesha

Erin K. said...

Praying for you! I didn't think we'd be able to afford the kind of house we wanted, in a safer neighborhood, until we got our financial ducks in a row. Then one night someone got shot in our driveway (it wasn't fatal, thankfully) and we put our house on the market the next day, financial ducks in a row or not.

To this day I am still amazed at how God worked out all of the details and blessed us with exactly the kind of house and exactly the kind of neighborhood we'd dreamed of. He works ALL things together for our good. And he very often surprises me by giving me the very things I don't think I deserve. What a perfect, gracious, loving heavenly father we have! I know he continues to have you in his hands, and I pray that he will continue to bless you in unimagineable ways!!!

jubilee said...

Matthew 7:11
"... how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?"

Praying and believing in this verse for you!

Nothing is an accident, nothing is a coincidence, for sure.