Monday, June 8, 2009

Sweeter than a Mil-won Dow-ars

When I changed my daughter's diaper after she got home from 4 days in Minnesota, she lost her mind. Crawling up the bed, kicking, screaming, crying, lost. her. mind. Every warning signal mothers come with went off at max volume. I got her calmed down and she passed out on me at 6:00 last night.

This morning when the clinic opened we were in line at her Doctors office. The nurse asked me what she needed to be seen for and I half choked out what happened while my daughter cried and said, "Mama my butt hurts" but she was patting her front. I have never seen the medical community move so fast in all my life.

PRAISE GOD, it turned out to be an infection because she had not been cleaned properly. I did not believe X touched her. But I didn't know who had access to her. All I knew was something was very wrong. And that I was not afraid of jail time.

Perspective is really something. Gone is feeling even almost sorry for myself. I can clearly see tonight, for the first time in a long time, how blessed I am, all over again. So life is not what I thought it would be. It's also not what I feared it would be.

It's been pretty quiet here at Willow Tree because I've been operating on a philosophy of my Grams, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." A couple of really smart women in my family are teaching me another one, "find something to be grateful for every day, and write it down."

Today I am grateful for my healthy daughter. She's cleaned up and on antibiotics, sleeping on me again tonight. When she finished her medicine today she said, "here Mama, wan' a mil-won dowars?" as she gave me her baby doll. NOTHING is sweeter than my healthy, untouched, baby doll. Not even a million dollars.

I Praise You Jesus.

Grateful,
Carolynn

7 comments:

Rach@In His Hands said...

Oh, hugs to you, Mama. How scary for you both.

"Not even a million dollars" is SO right. Praising Him with you...

Forgotten Katalyst said...

You don't always have to say somthin' nice you know. No person can be positive 100% of the time and often times real clarity can come from the perspective of others.

Love you babe!

Michelle M. said...

How scary! Glad that you little one is doing well now. Enjoy all the cuddles you can get- you deserve them :)

Growin' with it! said...

that fear is always in the back of my mind w/ my boys. grateful to hear she is okay. thank you for the beautiful email and i love putting a beautiful smiling face w/ my prayers now! ☺

"Rachel" said...

Wow... I am so thankful it was "just" an infection. It's such a scary, evil world we live in, isn't it? Where we have to worry about the protection of our children.

Keep up the good work, Mama. You are in our prayers. :)

imbeingheldhostage said...

How frightening!! I am so happy that all is well-- and good for you for acting so quickly (I think I would just run around in circles panicking if that fear grabbed ahold of me). Whew-- who would've thought we could be so happy for a little girl to have an infection?

jubilee said...

So glad that she's OK. Perspective is everything. Blessings on you and your chickadees.