I feel like Margaret when Judy Bloom wrote, "Are you there God? It's me..." Carolynn. I'm hanging on by my fingernails today. I know the Bible says when you've done all you can do - STAND. Does on my knees count? I can't believe I'm in His blindspot, but it feels like it. I'm looking for Him, seeking Him, but I can't hear Him. His silence is worse than the noise when my life exploded 6 months ago.